I am not sure I like having a phone or not. On one hand - I can't consistently check it and realize what a loser I am and no one has called. Then again technology is too good and there are so many ways to get a hold of people if you really wanted to. Home phone, emails and facebook. You can even call my family or friends if I am with them. So me not having a phone shouldn't stop anyone from hanging out with me if they really wanted to. It makes me think about last night when Ryan didn't try to figure things out or get a hold of me. Then is having so much fun - doesn't include me, invited me to play video games (which I don't play) and even worse makes me feel like I am intruding on him. It all makes me want to keep my distance so I don't get hurt and feel like a fool for trying too hard. I remember Lisa talking to Jen Bruno about a trip they went on or maybe they were just hanging out and their entire conversation was on their men. What were they guys doing right now and so forth. I found it enduring and so true - that what I am thinking and feeling or missing. It also makes me feel lopsided in the relationship. That is not how Ryan thinks at all - and even worse it reminds me for when he came home after one trip and I like a love sick teenager had baked cookies for everyone coming back for their drives home. Had washed Ryans sheets and lit candles even had godiva chocolates that reminded me of a valentines we once had. Not only did he not embrace me right when he got back but called me crazy when I called Dan because he never turned on his phone when he landed or arrived at his final destination. He even forgot his phone charger. With permission from Chassity (her and I talked about how we missed the guys) I called Kevin because he had verizon and wouldn't get charger if I called him to talk to Ryan during his layover on his way back. Once again it was met with annoyance. Grr. Even after all that rudeness I still missed him and tries to welcome him home. Grr. And he wonders why I hate his qzar trips.
Met up with Ryan and walked around todo santos plaza - checked on prices to get my ipod fixed $50-$100. So hungry we ate a Bruce's roll while we killed time. Caught happy hour with Dan and Lisa at La Pinata. Got Chicken Nachos and a Quesadilla that fed the four of us for under $11. The boys went to qzar and Lisa and I went to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 - I still think the books will always be better than the movies but since it had been so long since I read the book; I lost a lot of the details and was able to enjoy the movie on its own.
After the movie we walking around a bit just talking books (Pick Your Poison) and crafts. And then we got on to the topics of her job and inquired about the position I applied for. Edo had made a decision, and offered the job to someone getting her masters in business and is pretty much over qualified for the position yet she has taken two weeks to think about it and has yet to accept it. I don't get her bosses because they are not actually working together and getting things done, not compromising or even listening to each other. For example the position is suppose to be an admin position to help Lisa out - Lisa's boss is Amy - Lisa and Amy want me. HR department and Edo (Amy's Boss) also have an opinion on this matter. So basically they didn't like me. So now I know a couple of this that they are very disorganized and they didn't pick me. I am not sure how I feel about that. For one it doesn't make me want to work with them and get involved in a place that is so far behind and stressful. Reminds me of a saying - too many cook spoil the broth. And there seems like there is no time and no trust between anyone. And of course there is the part of me that wants to prove them wrong. My mom thinks if they do offer it to me - I should still take it. Ryan says I should keep applying.
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