Grr.. Money Issues

One thing I forgot to write about a couple of days ago was the conversation I had with my mom about money. More in particular Ryan having people pay for his ticket to Searcy and then Six Flags. I know they offered and they really want him there and he doesn't want to miss out - yadda yadda. But he took it - he is going there for a week on someone elses dime. Maybe its shocking because I don't think I could do it. I try not to advertise my misfortunes or make a big deal out of them, plus I have seen Ryan flaunt that fact that he is not paying for this trip. Its like he is not being humble, respectful or tackful. Its almost as if money have no value. I was brought up believing that if you wanted something you have to work at it/earn it. Something you can't do; I don;t know plan, save and sacrifice. I know I am just bitter and jealous. I should be happy that he is lucky to have friends like that and he is able to do something he loves. I hope he realizes that he's not only leaving me out, but also leaving me behind. He won't even miss me when he is gone because he is having so much fun and I am a crazy psycho girl he is getting a break from.