Gr....

Ryan Beard
good...I guess
Im doing fine

Alan McMahon
u guess? :(:(

Ryan Beard
work is a little better
personal life...ehh

Alan McMahon
:(:(
u and teresa ok?

Ryan Beard
tired of getting into arguments that I dont start
over the same old problems
we are ok...stable

Alan McMahon
that sounds kinda crap i guess

Ryan Beard
I dont like confrontations

Alan McMahon
me either haha

Ryan Beard
not good with them

Alan McMahon
frustrating

Ryan Beard
yeah

Alan McMahon
u need another holiday

Ryan Beard
I dont like being alone but I do miss being free from relationship stress
I need a holiday once a month =
=)=)



.......I guess I should be happy that I am slightly better than being alone. This is what he says to his friends about me. Why is he even with me. I still bring up old stuff because I am still hurting over it and unsure about us. Now I doubt everything he does and says. And its my fault I can't get over it. I wish it was that easy to just forgive and move on. I guess I am not programmed like that. Now I don't even want to be friends with Al. Its not like any of his friends stand up for me. Janet and Christina all his stupid co-workers and other married women. Dan even thought he should be with Amy even helped her cause giving her money. Kim is just like him they don't like confrontation plus she cheated and is trying to leave her husband. I know he was in love with two people at the same time but he chose me and made me feel that I wasn't good enough. On top of it all she was and still is married with a kid...........